Lyrics
IntroFor years
I thought I wanted this.
A look that stayed.
A voice that softened.
Then you came closer.
And something in me
Pulled back.
Verse 1You were new there.
Younger than most.
Easy smile.
Too comfortable in the room.
At first
I thought I imagined it.
Then the looks lasted longer.
You found reasons
To stand near me.
Your voice changed
When you spoke to me.
The jeans got tighter.
The makeup got darker.
You knew
I would notice.
And I did.
I had spent years
Thinking this was what I wanted.
To be wanted.
To be chosen.
To finally know
I wasn’t invisible.
Pre-ChorusBut when it came close
It didn’t feel like relief.
It felt familiar.
Too familiar.
ChorusI wanted it
Until it came close.
The attention.
The tension.
The proof.
I thought I wanted
Someone to look at me
That way.
Then you did.
And every part of me
Went quiet.
Not from desire.
From warning.
Verse 2You kept trying.
Small conversations.
Little jokes.
Standing where
I had to notice you.
I gave you short answers
And turned back to the screen.
Code was easier.
Code never changed its face
Halfway through.
Never smiled
And made me wonder
What was underneath it.
You probably thought
I wasn’t interested.
Maybe part of me was.
That was the problem.
Because I knew
How badly I used to want
This exact kind of attention.
And I didn’t trust
The part of me
That still remembered why.
BridgeYou didn’t do anything wrong.
That’s what made it harder.
You were just there.
And something old
Was standing behind you.
Heavy BreakYou came closer.
I stepped back.
You smiled.
I watched.
You gave me
What I used to chase.
I let it pass.
Final ChorusI wanted it
Until it came close.
The attention.
The tension.
The proof.
I thought being wanted
Would finally feel
Like enough.
Then you looked at me
That way.
And I understood
Sometimes you don’t run
Because you’re afraid.
Sometimes you leave
Because something in you
Remembers.
OutroYou stood beside me.
I turned back
To the code.
And let the moment
Die there.
