Lyrics
IntroThere were nights
Nothing was funny.
Not one thing.
No clever line.
No reason
To smile.
Verse 1White walls
Cold light
A room that smelled like chemicals
Pain so loud
It made the whole world
Feel small
People kept asking
How bad it was
Like pain could fit
Inside a number
Like I could point
At a little face
And make them understand
So I stopped trying
To explain it
Pre-ChorusFor a while
There was no joke
Only the dark
ChorusThen one came back
Small
Mean
Almost stupid
But it was mine
The first joke after the dark
The first thing
That sounded like me
I didn’t laugh
Because it stopped hurting
I laughed
Because somewhere underneath
I was still there
The first joke after the dark
And somehow
That was enough
Verse 2Humor never saved the day
It never healed
What was broken
Never turned the room
Into something kind
But for three seconds
I stood above it
Three seconds
Where the pain
Didn’t own the whole room
And those seconds
Turned into minutes
Then years
Until the joke
Wasn’t hiding the wound
It was proving
I could still speak
BridgeThere are moments
Too dark
For laughter
And anyone who says otherwise
Has never been there
But when the first bad joke
Finds its way back
You know something
The darkness
Doesn’t
You’re still here
Final ChorusThe first joke after the dark
Wasn’t brave
Wasn’t beautiful
Wasn’t healing
It was just
A little piece of me
Coming back
The pain was still there
The room was still cold
Nothing had changed
Except one thing
I could laugh again
And as long as I can do that
The dark
Doesn’t get
The last word
OutroNo miracle.
No lesson.
Just one thought
So stupid
I had to smile.
And there I was.
