Lyrics
IntroI learned love
From stories
Where the boy waits
And bleeds
And proves
And somehow—
That makes him worthy.
I believed it.
Verse 1I put her above me
Before she ever asked
Built a fucking altar
Out of every glance
Every smile
Every word
Every second
I thought I had to earn
So I became smaller
Quieter
Easier to keep
And called it love
While I disappeared
At her feet
Pre-ChorusI never saw the cage
Because I built it
Out of hope
ChorusTHEN I STOPPED LOOKING UP
STOPPED WORSHIPPING
WHAT STOOD IN FRONT OF ME
STOPPED CALLING HER A DREAM
WHILE I BECAME
LESS THAN HUMAN
I STOPPED LOOKING UP
AND FINALLY SAW
NO GOD
NO PRIZE
NO ANSWER
JUST A WOMAN
AND A MAN
EYE TO EYE
Verse 2I thought devotion
Could make me chosen
Thought patience
Could make me enough
Thought if I stayed
Long enough
Gave enough
Bent enough
She would finally turn
But every step
I took toward her
Was another step
Away from myself
And when I looked back
There was almost
Nothing left
BridgeMaybe that was the lie
Nobody warned me about
You can lose yourself
Without ever being rejected
You can destroy your spine
Trying to become
Worth choosing
I don’t want love
That needs me
On my knees
Black Metal BreakNO MORE ALTARS
NO MORE WORSHIP
NO MORE FUCKING
BEGGING TO BE SEEN
I WILL NOT SHRINK
TO MAKE YOU TALLER
I WILL NOT BLEED
TO MAKE YOU CHOOSE ME
IF YOU WANT ME
COME CLOSE
IF YOU DON’T
THEN GO
BUT I WILL NEVER
LOOK UP
AGAIN
Final ChorusI STOPPED LOOKING UP
STOPPED TURNING BEAUTY
INTO SOMETHING HOLY
STOPPED WAITING UNDERNEATH
FOR SOMEONE ELSE
TO NAME MY WORTH
I STOPPED LOOKING UP
AND LEARNED
WHAT LOVE SHOULD NEVER COST
NO ONE ABOVE
NO ONE BELOW
NO ONE CHASING
NO ONE KNEELING
JUST TWO PEOPLE
CLOSE ENOUGH
TO SEE EACH OTHER
CLEARLY
OutroI learned love
From movies.
Then I learned
From losing myself.
Now when she stands
In front of me—
I don’t look up.
I look
At her.
